oh cupid
February 14, 2010, 1:15 am
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to my family near and far, to my best friend and horton family, to lietuva and those that i havent made memories with yet but my heart aches for, to my grandma and grandpa, get better soon, to my friends who need to stay in my life, to my enemies who havent realized how to love and understand my point of view, to those who never gave me a chance to love them, to myself because i will never leave

dont just wait for the 14th of february to say these things, remind the ones who are important everyday

happy valentines day everyone

chocolate kisses



cha ching
February 8, 2010, 8:33 pm
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a wise man once told me..

stop talking about it and just do it

so ima do it to it.


everything is just soo
February 7, 2010, 6:38 pm
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for some reason, life has just been blob lately.. yeah a blob.. like WHAT DO I DO WITH THIS BLOB.. no idea where it came from or what to do with it.. everything is just so our-of-balance

been slacking on my own goals lately, giving myself excuses for things that i don’t want myself to do.. family issues are getting out of hand and NEED to be dealt with… getting behind in school because im letting myself do it.. feel like im losing that initial drive and motivation i’ve had.. WHAT HAPPENED TO SWIMMING?! its like it came and went and i forgot aobut my passion.. friend situations are getting better but still something feels off… oh and lets not forget the opposite sex.. im trying so hard to let go of what never really was and just forget about chasing anyone and focus on greta, but i keep sinking back and making myself feel pathetic

so i guess today is really the day im gonna give it a push to turn it all around.. oh and the boys basketball team just might have given me that extra little push.. you guys worked SOOO DAMN HARD TODAY and you deserve that win.. hard work reaps amazing benefit and im ready for that

so no more excuses and no more slacking off.. i have to see how hard i can push myself and what potential i truly have.. never rest on my accomplishments but keep pushing for better

healthier and happier self, top work ethic in school, back on my swimming grindddd, and just learn to let go and enjoy the moment im in NOWWW

blogs are good venting outlets


off to do good for me


blow out
February 7, 2010, 4:57 pm
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So congrats to Brocktons boys basketball team in the revenge of Lynn. THASS RIGHHTT,

okay so I’ve some tot he conclusion

I miss our relationship, not having a relationship.

got it good.

stayed home this weekend. yucky.


hopefully next weekend will be good!

February 6, 2010, 6:36 pm
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So I’m bored and don’t want to do my homework on a Saturday

See this is where a boyfriend would come in handy to keep me company

but hey I can be bad all by myself

Just watched sisterhood of the traveling pants 2 and I really liked a quote in there it goes like this..

“no one can diminish you, but yourself.”

Yeah I cried like i do every movie with a sad moment in it

I kinda want to see dear John.

The question of the day is….

Do I miss our relationship or do i miss a relationship?

I honestly am just writing down random shiz right now. I think I actually might write a poem or something.

I am soooooo ready to go on vacation out of country. THANK YOU!

Anyone up for Greece?!

still without a phone to call my own. AHHHH

Oh yeah and someone left  a comment on a post from a couple days ago, the one about friends and stuff. They go by the name of ahaa with an email like abc something. IDK

but in response to that.

Maybe your just lucky. Ever think of that? I’m also young so maybe I haven’t found that group of friends. Or maybe in my life I’m not meant to have a group of friends. I self reflect all the time. Heck I keep a DIARY (which I suggest everyone do, it frees the mind of it’s burdens) So thank you for the request, but it’s something I’ve already looked at. I also never said that I’m not responsible for such things. I am in part, and in which I do admit. But anyways this is all in the past. We all ended up making up. It was a big misunderstanding. But I do not take back what I said about me not having a consistent friend. Because its true. And I’m so glad for that because it turned out if I did try to force the friendship(this was way back) I’d BE MISERABLE. I’m very happy with the friends I have now. They are more like me.

It’s a way of life too, some come and some go, and some stay. I’m glad you found your stay.

okay I’m off


rev kash

February 3, 2010, 8:31 pm
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lmao so I’m watching Tyra with Gee and this guy with a hairy pot belly just laid on a girl lmaolmao, funniest thing I’ve seen today!!!

Okay back on topic keeds!


Woke up and realised I didn’t do all the homework I wanted to, but it’s all good because it wasn’t due today.

School was pretty much school. nothing special. Except last period my friend and I had a boob punching contest…NOT FUN!

oh yeah and i walking all day like I had prickly sticks in every hole and crevis in my body. This was because I was wicked sore from working out yesterday.

So went to the Y! did my doo and it felt good.

“Pain is just weakness leaving your body”

well that about sums it up. I’m about to take a shower and do homework ya digg.

kash rules everything around me.

February 3, 2010, 2:14 am
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so kudos to kasha on that ridiculous post that sums up anything i would have said.. and THANK YOU, so much goddamn love just cant stand it sometimes… yeah right

it’s honestly one of the hardest things for me, realizing that people would be lucky to have me.. now please don’t take this the wrong way because i know it comes off cocky.. but its really so hard.. im in this situation which is similar to one i’ve been in before which sucked alotta butt.. where i feel like i have to be the one doing something to please someone else in order to keep them around.. i work so hard and put so much emotion into it and get NOTHING back.. and i just dont stop myself

i really need to realize that if someone WANTS me, they’ll come get me and if im not their priority, they shouldn’t be mine.. i have so much to offer anyone and the closests people to me understand that, my emotions take over reason and i forget who i am and how lucky anyone would be to truly understand me.. so i have to be active and stop myself from falling victim and playing victim to someone who has other priorities

(have yourself as the #1 priority…^)

THIS IS SO HARD, but it makes it much easier to let it all out

ANWAYS, im with kasha on all that cleansing stuff.. its weird cause it seems to come around the same time every year, hopefully this time it works out

some goals in a nutshell:

-get in shape, make my mind work, LIVE, appreciate my family and know them better, work to my potential and above that, SWIM, simplify life, get rid of the unnecessary things and focus on those that make me excited about waking up in the morning, and last but not least.. DO WHAT I WANT TO DO, it IS my life, remember?

i advise everyone to do the same

cut the fat, focus on you, build strong relationships, and love(meat)

oh p.s.- i smelled like fried chicken the entire day after kasha’s house.. like REAL TALK STENCH KID


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